Hi everyone, welcome back to another blog with Morty! Hope everyone has had a good couple of weeks since you last heard of me, and been trying at least to stay warm and positive these past few days! I say positive because I know how hard seasonal depression can be on some of us. For myself, I struggle when the weather just looks grey and dark. Like it basically just looks sad. That’s when it’s really tough for me. On a good day, I’m able to change the way I think about it and perceive it, but on a not-so-good day, it’s challenging for sure.
Where should I start today? Umm everything with me has been good actually! I’ve been really busy but a good busy. A lot of exciting things have been happening lately, and I really haven’t had time to take it all in, until now as I write the blog. Last Friday I had a couple of things happening. I had two interviews, I had my last day at this employment placement program, I had my 2-year medallion and I received a call with an offer to work for an amazing company! Honestly, an opportunity of a lifetime.
I guess I’ll start today with how my two-year medallion went because I believe in my last blog, I touched on how the placement that I was at went. So my two-year medallion, I don’t even know where to start!! Let’s just say that it was an unforgettable experience with an amazing group of people and friends.
How does it feel to be two years sober? Well, it feels really freakin good. At any point during my recovery here at SHH, I could’ve left and decided to give up or think that I was ready to leave, and I could’ve ended up relapsing or I could’ve been okay. But I wasn’t willing to take that chance, because I knew that if I was still thinking like that, that most likely, I would end up relapsing. Or maybe not relapsing, but not doing so great in other areas that I am proof of that they work if you dedicate yourself to your recovery and your life while being here at SafeHope Home.
My medallion is probably at the top of the list of memories that I will forever keep in my heart. I really felt the love and care in the room. Almost like that feeling you get and you say “Wow, it’s like we were all meant to be here for each other.” Everyone said really great things about me and I did my best not to cry and to also believe everything they were saying. Not because they weren’t saying the truth, because they were hahah! But more because of how hard it is sometimes to believe those beautiful kind words that you can say to others, but not to yourself. So even though I have gotten better at knowing myself and loving every single part of it, I struggle with it sometimes. But that day I sat and stood with confidence and took every loving and kind word in.
As it was a very special day for me, it was also a sad day for me at the very end. Don’t get me wrong, everyone who went and was there for me, I am extremely grateful that they were and without any of those people who did go, it would’ve not been the same. As for my mom and family, for confidentiality purposes of other participants, it couldn’t happen but I still received a bouquet of flowers from my momma. I love you mom!
Anyways, I will end the blog here for today! I hope everyone has an amazing weekend! Stay warm and safe everyone!
Till next time,
-Morty